Ok so now that you know that it is ending what do you do?
How do you continue knowing this looms over your head?
I don’t know what to do. I guess just carry on how you are and it will be happy again…right? I want to be happy, but this year I don’t really see that happening anymore. What else is there to do? When people ask how I am at school what should I say? Should I tell them the truth and risk pushing people away and stressing out the people I care about most to the point of loathing or do I say that I am great and that I am really enjoying myself here.
HOW DO I GET HELP WITHOUT TURNING THE PEOPLE/PERSON I LOVE ON THEIR/HIS HEELS IN THE OTHER DIRECTION?
I guess I know reality and I have known it all along. I know that everything will end but I hate how I have to crush ligaments to be able to continue. Am I doing the right thing? At this point I don’t even know. Anyone at this point could save me from myself.